It’s difficult not to resent women for not wanting me at my peak, when I looked my best and could have pleased them the most.
It’s difficult to offer myself in some sort of mutually beneficial way, because I don’t feel attractive anymore, not like I was, and since I was completely rejected when I was at my best, that compounds the problem. Instead, I feel like every interaction with a woman is a battle in which I’m trying to take something from her or manipulate her. I can’t just give her sexy eyes and a smile, indicating that I’m hot, she’s hot, and we should have sex, because I don’t feel hot anymore.
